More thoughts...

As I drove to the store, I realized I really didn't update you on anything of substance.   I guess that is because I don't want the blog to be an insight into Canada and our lives.  I struggle with putting down my feelings because I don't want the blog to turn into a negative thing.  But as I was driving I realized if I don't update you on the struggles we are having then I lose the opportunity to have  you pray for us.  So I think I will add a section on the blog or in each post called prayer needs.  This way I can be brief and if you want more details you can email me.  Here goes:

Prayer needs:
Tiana: she is trying very hard to "fit in".  She is making friends but they are all superficial since we are new.  She tried out for the volleyball team but with 30 girls trying for 12 spaces, she didn't make it.  She is in 2 youth groups.  She is looking for that one close friend.  She also needs to find a sport or team to be involved in.  Unfortunately there aren't as many options here but I am looking outside the box at this point and we are considering hockey or karate or something new.  Pray that she keeps trying.  I am very proud and she keeps bouncing back and not giving up but I worry that she will give up.  This is hard move for her and I still think it is a great opportunity/experience but that doesn't make it any easier.

Me:  I struggle on a daily basis.  The pain I have as I watch Tiana struggle.  The battles with the two teen girls.  The loss of direction and meaning in my life.  The distance I feel from everyone that I love.  It all takes its toll.  Each day I get up and try again and some days that is easy and some days that is hard.  There I days where I feel my world is crumbling around me faster than I can build it up.  I am thankful for God in my life and He has heard some weird prayers from me because I am still trying to thank him in all circumstances.

Tabitha:  I don't know...she really doesn't communicate her feelings so I don't know what she needs.   I know she really struggles making the "right" choices and it gets her in trouble quite a bit.  So we can pray for wisdom for her.

Wil:  Again I don't know...not a big feeling person...lol...typical male.  Pray for peace and strength amid the chaos that exists right now.

A wise person, my sister, told me to give it at least a year before making any judgements and that has been extremely helpful but it doesn't make it easier.

Sorry to be such a downer but I didn't feel like the blog was as accurate as it should be.  I have a way of glossing over the difficult stuff because it means I have to dwell on it again and why drag others down with you.  I guess I am looking at it as me climbing up with the love and prayer of friends instead of pulling you down.  Love you all!